Friday, August 12, 2011

of elephants and bears and puppets and keyboards…

Yesterday my mom called to say she hit the motherload of polly pockets at a yard sale. Lots of polly’s, lots of clothes, even a big ship for polly with all the pieces…all for around $5! Of course my girls are elated! They cannot wait until their new toys from Memaw come in the mail. This morning I told the girls they should go through their toys and pick some to get rid of to make room for the new ones. Libbs got right to it (she’s the most excited, as she just loves polly pocket). She made me a pile just like I asked. This is where the hard part comes in. I have to be able to let them get rid of toys they choose…even if I like those toys. Which was fine until I saw 4 things…

1. The bear I made for Nadia’s 2nd birthday. I told Liberty that even if they don’t play with their bears I’ve made for them…they are special and can just sit in their beds. I hand made those bears, for goodness sake!

2. A puppy puppet that was mine when I was a baby. Liberty got upset with me when I said I didn’t want to get rid of that…I explained why it meant something to me and said I would keep it in my own room.

3. The last tw0 I will combine into this one…those are the elephant and the keyboard (and yes, I have blogged about the keyboard before). These two things were gifts from my dad. The elephant was a Christmas gift for Leila when she was a baby. The keyboard was a birthday gift for Nadia when she turned one. I know that things are just things…but for some reason it feels like getting rid of those things is throwing out my dad. I know in my head that is not true…but my heart isn’t agreeing. It’s such a silly thing, really. (If you don’t know, my dad passed away suddenly in May 2010). Thankfully Leila came to save the elephant…but the keyboard…well, all the kids want to throw it out because it doesn’t work anymore. I completely understand their thinking…it makes total sense. Even though I have the memories, getting rid of the stuff is harder than I thought…

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I miss my daddio so very much.

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Found this pic of my dad and I recently in an album I was looking through. I’m not sure exactly when this was…maybe the summer after my freshman year of college? We were going to Mackinac Island for a school board conference (my mom was on the school board at the time).

3 comments:

Rainbow Bekah said...

Keep it. Just keep it and put it away somewhere if only for the stories it holds. Love you!

Jamie said...

Rebecca, I want to hug you. Keep it if it's important to you. You're an adult, you don't have to hold yourself to the standards you've set for the little girls. You can keep all 4 things hidden away in your own room, and I'll bet someday the girls will be glad you did!

Beck Gambill said...

I agree with the other comments. If you're hesitating keep them all tucked away. Isn't it funny how toys can hold such emotion for us even as adults!